'I need to talk', she said, in a voice that wasn't quite hers. What was alarming was the tone, it wasn't the usual one, it had an air of dominance about it. And yes, something i realized later...she said 'I need to talk' and not 'we need to talk'. It was all my fault, having spent a week to convince her to go for a morning walk, I finally succeeded...can't say if succeeded turned out to be the right word though.
'So, why are you so impressed with yourself?' sweet bomb exploded. She put it in very simple words, just like she always does. My situation was tricky. I have always had this attitude problem (it's getting reduced i am sure, i have at least started sending friend requests on social networks rather than just accepting them). Yeah, so i was sure about my (undue) arrogance. And so was she. The worst part, i could not lie to her (have tried it in the past - never worked so i gave up). Haan, so my answer!
'i don't know, maybe i am that good'
'See, that's where the problem lies...ok, tell me why?'
'Multiple reasons, can't be counting all' (shouldn't have said this)
'Multiple reasons, I know your reasons. You have run them over so many times. You think the average person around is dumb. You think 90% of drivers in Delhi can't drive properly, the politicians are all fraud, your professors can't teach, the lady over there does not know how to jog (she did look funny, but i could not risk pointing it out then), cricketers don't use their brains, policemen are corrupt, the world is full of people not doing their jobs properly...tell me this, are you perfect?
'No, i am not (wanted to say 'i am close to it'). But I have you, and you are perfect. I know you will make me perfect someday'
Flattery always works! Didn't work this time. What followed was pure disaster. Some minutes later, she was the only one speaking. I don't generally allow people to dominate arguments, but against her my situation is kind of helpless. I did manage a few haans and hmmms in between (even that was tough).
So, the talk had everything i had ever got wrong in life (again my fault, i always share everything with her, hopelessly honest). Yeah, she also said something about the way i write 'You are so complicated, it is impossible to read your stuff and you intentionally make it tough for others. Even your blog posts are so 'forcing opinions' type, no room for comments.'
It was about then that i was beginning to realize how pathetic i have been all this while.
'So, what do you suggest' (In hope of an escape, i know she can't be so cruel to me)
She laughed, the laugh I have been in love with, for i don't know how long. And then a kiss on the forehead, always works and she knows it.
'Jokes aside, you are doing fine. Just focus less on proving things to others, respect people more, and give up your 'I am the best' attitude. Why don't you try and relax in life' (Ah hun, her favorite style of explaining things to people who fly - crush the other person's confidence, bring him back to ground level where he can listen, put your point across, and then let him go again)
I knew all along i was doing fine ;)
While leaving, she concluded 'so, ankit you were right. Morning walks are not that bad'
'Yeah mom, they aren't. But I will probably sleep longer tomorrow'
